I kept bending,
Bending over my back,
Just to see how far I could stretch,
Before the eventual snap.
I kept leaping,
From one thing to the next,
Just to see how far was this distance,
That would cause my eventual death,
I kept playing,
Playing with the emotions of the humans I met,
Just to see how far I could go,
Till I broke my own soul instead.
I kept ignoring,
Ignoring what people said,
Just to see how far I could grow,
Until I became depressed.
I kept sleeping,
All day and all night,
Just to see how much I could sleep,
Before life would flash before my eyes.
I kept listening,
Listening to you speak about your problems,
Just to see how long I could,
Before my ears began to bleed.
I don’t know why I do these things.
I don’t know when to stop.
I don’t know why even though I know it hurts,
I stand by your side.
Every time you come to me,
Leaving me broken once you were done,
For you let me think I was important,
When importance; I had none,
Not in your life for sure,
For I was the lonely one.